On a mission....

On a mission to find myself again; I have time. :)
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To those who think I starve myself,

Y’all be. trippin’. I say that with the utmost love. I eat like no tomorrow when it’s not hospital food.

Then I’m all up in the gym when they’re not tapping my spine. Serious.

Oh my, I was pulled into a conversation with some hippie tech haters. They were cool with me ‘til they realized I work with their version of ‘the man.’ Whatever, I shooed them away with a peek at some Cisco docs I was reviewing. 8p

Someone just called me a cougar. That’s good, right?

I’m about to start my morning with a devotional read and I thought I’d wake myself up with a little music; that’s when this came on: All Day - Hillsong United: http://youtu.be/7d7QBl-yjn0. This reminds me of how the balancing of humility comes in tricky. I grew up in a Catholic School where the lesson in humility stuck. Now, the sticking to that lesson doesn’t work in high school applications. I wouldn’t bend and everything began falling in my lap in public school. I didn’t play on the tennis or volleyball teams because I didn’t want the attention. It wouldn’t matter, Stanford flagged my game and test scores in grade school. Now that I’m older, it’s still tricky in the corporate world—especially when hanging out with execs who would gladly fiscally help with my nonprofit—I just don’t flaunt how I’m connected to ambassadors, celebrities, or huge nonprofit organizations overseas. Heh, one of the CEOs understood. Now I just need to get better so I can pick up the plans to present to him one day. I will need to maintain my contacts in that circle. Tricky to do from in the hospital. Depending on how all my tests turn out, I might have to package the humanitarian business plan for presentation to that one CEO. Trust me, he’s got the resources to get it rolling—the plan can be infectious internationally; it’s all for the children too. Not many places can resent that.

What is this, I reuse my teabags? Absolutely. The things aren’t cheap because they’re meant to flavor POTS. At home I usually use it in my coffee cup and then safely refrigerate it to keep mold away so I can use it the next day. Cheap? No, practical. I use herbal tea which isn’t something hospitals have on hand; I’m not supposed to have caffeine. It’s only when necessary and I haven’t been on THE CLOCK n forever—Starbucks & Pete’s have no power over me. ;p

Yes, I’m an uber nerd. Docs are talking about new treatments, tests, tubes and hospitals; I’m thinking about how all this will affect my work—getting certified and writing manuals to simplify and train in crazy protocols. O.o

You know it’s sad when you hear Guns & Roses ‘November Rain’ and it brings back memories of dates with a relationship that failed from both ends because we were both too chicken to talk to each other.

Hypothesizing with your friends or even yourself about how the other person ‘might’ feel isn’t the same as having the chutzpah to ask them. Massive fail!

Lesson learned. Now for me to not be scared of execs who like me, spoil me, and want to spend more time together—‘Wake up, they like me for me.’