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This is evidence of the old raver me pushing through to my born again Christian self.  My ex loved it when he heard it; I’m glad I wrote it down.

"Jesus worship ‘longside,
Massive priest selecta inside.
Can I get a reeeewiieend?
Bussit.”

This is evidence of the old raver me pushing through to my born again Christian self. My ex loved it when he heard it; I’m glad I wrote it down.

"Jesus worship ‘longside,
Massive priest selecta inside.
Can I get a reeeewiieend?
Bussit.”

Sorry for the alliteration, I never really grew out of it. I at least leave them out of my speeches.

Do not lecture me when I’m sick and awake after a night of 2 hours sleep which began and ended with hearing screams. I do get grumpy and do not enjoy forcing myself to smile.

If you think the wounds are ugly, imagine how it feels when you put & pull the strings out of me. Having your fandom over my uncle take over mid-process didn’t help either.

Jesus, thank you for switching my nurses.

I heard this song this morning and it woke me up.  It reminded me that my Lord has saved me from indescribable pain and horrors as well as redeemed me from my sins.  Geez, to think he did that for everyone.  Just believe and ask for forgiveness - not hard when you know what he’s gone through on the way to the cross or ON the cross.

I’ll say it, if you spit at me I wouldn’t take it lightly - especially if I had His power. When a “woman” spit at me last, I had to keep smiling & waving because I was on a parade float. Patience pays off — security came to take her away, her pedophile co-worker boyfriend was arrested again, and her husband found out about her affairs with the nasty old man.

How do I know that man is icky? I worked in his office when I was 16 and training for a real-estate license for when I turned 18. I was sick of the old man’s moves/attempts and told my boyfriend (28 yo engineer & fam friend) about him. The boyfriend was sickened because that old man was twice his age. Hmmm… pedo vs. pedo - not good.

This was my first bailing from a job I had and I never regretted it. Lord was and is still by my side. :D

Ouch!

Ouch!

i felt broken this morning.  After a bit of prayer, I was compelled to post this.  :’)

unkaglen:

Lord, I know you love me the same if I succeed or if I fail, but I feel so much pressure to perform in so many areas of my life, that I find myself trying to “perform” for you. And here’s the thing, that’s got to stop. First, because I’m just not that good at being a Christian. I’m good at pretending to be a good Christian, but I can’t really pretend with you, now can I? And secondly, when I feel like I’m “under-performing” with you, then I feel like I can’t face you.

And I can’t have that.

I simply can’t live without you. I need to be with you. Besides, how can I become a better Christian if don’t get it from you? I know in my heart that you don’t need me to do or accomplish anything for you to love me. You don’t love me because of who I am, you love me because of who you are. And yet I constantly feel like I’m letting you down.

Take those stupid feelings from me. Heck, if you’ll love me as I am, why can’t I just accept it? Sure it’s better than what I deserve, but so what? If you’re not complaining, I’m not complaining. I’ve hit the jackpot here. I’ve got all the love and protection and provision I’ll ever need. So Lord, help me to just be still and receive it.